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| Artist: Gilad |
I wanted some time to be able to de-stress from that job. It is extremely high-stress and the culture is not ideal by a long-shot. I was hoping to get some time in the woods with my dog by the river. But, lovely Superstorm Sandy really messed those plans up bigtime. Oh I'm not complaining (too much), because there are still people who have no power, no home to go to, their lives were completely turned upside down by her. I know I got off easy in that respect.
Still, the weekend was spent in preparation for the storm, Monday and Tuesday were spent riding it out, Wednesday was clean up and Samhain prep. Thursday- Samhain.. best day of the whole vacation. Friday, I tried to get some work done in the afternoon, and learned that I should have just stayed on vacation.
Interestingly enough, several of my friends have also had issues with others dragging them into places they don't want to be.. the word "boundaries" keeps popping up.
I'm going to call these lessons, but honestly, they're simply reminders of things forgotten in the fog of this thing we call "the real world".
Lesson 1: Set your boundaries. Keep them maintained. Violators should be prosecuted.
I've also been really contemplating my job for about 2 years now. I love learning and development. I do not love the culture of my company. Working from home has its benefits. Getting to travel used to be exciting, but it's become a chore with delays, poor service, etc... and, because I'm heading toward the big 5-0, I think I've come to a place where I really want to do something that matters. When I was younger, I took a lot more risks and didn't worry about security or stability as much. I've had the security and stability for awhile now, and it got comfortable. But, there's a price to pay for everything, no? The price has been tons of stress, working really long hours and not having time to do more things that are important to me. Worth it? For awhile, yes, because I had children and grandchildren to support. The kids are all grownups now, and the grandchildren have their mom and stepdad handling things for them. Perhaps it's time to move on to something else.
Lesson 2: Do what you love and stop stressing over the risks involved. A happy life is worth the risk.
Along those same lines of employment culture: we used to have one where hard work and talent were appreciated. Some time ago, we had a structure change in which people who did not know any aspect of our core business took over. These are smart people. They have good intentions. They just don't have any people management skills. They have created a culture of catching people doing things wrong rather than right, and it's become tedious and tiresome to watch good people being treated badly. Many of my co-workers are looking for employment elsewhere because of this. I think the biggest lesson for me this week is that I'm no longer going to sit down and take it. It's time for me to firmly and professionally stand up and not concern myself with whether or not I'll be fired for it. I'm going to do what's right and honorable.
Lesson 3: NEVER forget to be true to you.
I also know I am a witch. I create my life, write my own story and live it. My Imramma is my own, and I have to own it. It's time.
